Exclusive

We're exclusive. Have been since Easter Sunday. Then a whole day and afternoon on my birthday. Omg the birthday sex... If this lives in posterity, I'm sorry (not sorry), everyone. But multiple orgasms. Yes, yes, yes, yes. <3

"You're not falling alone."

Now that I got that out of my system. I feel a little more clear-headed.

I'm seeking compatibility now. Connection and communication.

What do I need? Definitely daily communication. How much? Uncertain.

I love the nightly phone call.

I want to text throughout the day to share things.

Perhaps I write these thoughts down to share at the end of the night. Gives us something to talk about and allows for his independence. And mine. Then I move along with my day and share during a dedicated time where we can have our complete undivided attention on each other.

Do I require his immediate response? No. 

What are your communication needs? Am I meeting those needs?

"It's just semantics". It's not. I find that dismissive. I find value in defining a relationship. It makes sure we are on the same page. It tells the world what we are. It is very clear. I know what I want to move towards and what I'm looking for. If it's not defined, it's a situationship, and I'm not staying in that. I'm willing to explore a relationship intentionally and move towards a shared vision of what that looks like. To me, it's exclusive, then boyfriend/girlfriend.

Some notes:

  • Act like it's possible to be safe.
  • Choose. Decide to act secure, even when you're feeling anxious.
  • Choose to believe we're a team.
  • Choose to reach out.
  • Choose to stay curious.
  • Choose trust over fear.
  • Choose connection over control.
  • Choose softness over strategy.

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